Yea...so it's been forever....I know it! I haven't had time to just post my feelings about life anymore...which is sad. I like posting...I really do! Buuuut life just does not allow for it sometimes...

Anyway--exams are coming to a close and I will be done TOMORROW!!! Yesssss. Then I have a few things planned for the week....

Tomorrow night I'm going to the Grill with some friends....thursday I get to go have my fingerprints done in the morning. I guess when you work at a high school you  need that now...creeeeeeepy. Thursday I work 2-10 and then on Friday I'm going to IHOP with my lovely Sarah! Saturday ensues Christmas parties, blah, blah, blah....the usual Christmas festivities...but I am now off to shop for new shoes...I need them desperately....maybe a new outfit as well. Who knows!

okay everyone. time for an update! school is in full swing now and i have yet to receive my sales book in the mail. ahhh i'm trying to be patient, but it's very frustrating! first i have to re-order it and now...it's taking forever. other than that, i hate my english class--i haven't done anything of any importance as of yet. usually, i am a big fan of english. i enjoy writing and typing and all of that sort of malarky. instead, i have a prof that can barely speak the english language. i'm all for people of different ethnicities teaching and that sort of thing, but i don't think english is the best area for her. we pretty much talk about vocabulary and how interesting words are....i could do that with my grandpa for free thank you.

so i've thought a lot about my relationships lately. i really love having good friends. and i really love meeting new people. i've been dating my boyfriend for almost 3 years now and i'm beginning to realize that i communicate with him totally different than i do most of my friends. i think it needs some work. i need some advice. i love him to death and he's very good to me. i can talk to him about anything i want but he doesn't seem to have much to say back to me. he says he wants to talk more and everything but doesn't know how. how can this be? are we really just so different that this can happen? i just thought everybody had things to talk about....

phones suck. i hate talking on them and i hate the crappy service they have. they're expensive and annoying. the internet is wonderful. you can type and erase and delete things that you don't mean to say. on a phone it might come through as something that you didn't say because the signal cut out for a second and then there is nothing you can do about it. what a bunch of crap. i hate phones. we should all just be able to teleport from place to place and see each other whenever we want.

why the heck do we pay athletes so much money? pretty much anybody can throw a basketball around. some are better than others but it doesn't take much of a brain. i can eat food just as good as anyone else--maybe not the hot-dog eating champion but does that mean that we should pay him millions everyday? i didn't think so. once people get it through their heads that these athletes will never do anything for them in their lifetime, i think we'll stop spending so much money to support them. if i could see one athlete use the immense amount of power that we give them and do something out-of-the ordinary for a change, i would leap for joy! heck, i would tell everyone i knew about it. well, maybe not. but you see my point.

sometimes i wonder if i would have been a hippie if i were to live back in the day. but then i think that i would make a bad one because i enjoy being well-groomed.

I've had a pretty nice weekend so far. Last night I went to Ashlee's bachlorette party and it ended up just being 4 of us, but it was still a good time. Ended up getting home at a decent hour and then got up around 945. Sarah spent the night so I brought her home and then headed off to pick up water for "waterfest". That turned out pretty good and our water bottles ended up being passed out within about 10 minutes. We stood along 28th street and passed them through car windows and so that was kind of fun. We took on 2 special needs women to help us (missy and edna), edna was a hoot. She was faster than I was!

So after looking at cars and going to Big Boy for lunch we decided to go back and pick up Dylan's car and head over to his house. Then later on we went to TGI Fridays where we saw Dan, Kendall, and Eric. It was like a reunion or something. We went and saw Little Miss Sunshine with our movie passes and I do have to say, it was weird but it was really good. It makes me happy that they make movies about a family that would actually exist today.

Sometimes the stupidest things happen after I see things though... it seems like just the smallest hint of something can remind me of my dad. This time I totally didn't see it coming...the girl's grandpa died in the movie and I started thinking about my dad...and then I started thinking that when I have children someday...they won't get to know who their grandfather ever was... my memories can only go so far and I can never bring him back so that they can meet him. It seems stupid to me now that I would get so upset about it because there is nothing I can do....but I guess I'm just not over it yet. I just want to know how long it takes for a person to "get over it", and will it ever happen. When can I just be happy and not worry about it anymore.